Depend on change. Change is an option that is always available.
Is it possible to take action and have the attitude that no matter what obstacles you encounter you will push forward? Can we remain completely unemotional and unattached to any criticism or failure?
The ego discourages change in its attempt to keep you safe. The ego’s instinctual job is to survive, like an animal in the wild. When it does not receive payment or reward we suffer. Ego questions our dreams and fights to smother our sparks of light. Ego snickers in the corner when we fear making a decision for change.
Just the thought alone of having the ability to change and to welcome it is powerful. Stop thinking that others and events can control and change you. That is laughable because we are always in control and our spirit, our hearts, cannot be changed by others.
What about changes we deem necessary but not so welcome? Why do we let them happen? Why do we not fight harder to remain the same unchanged individual? I believe our greater self knows that the change is merely a step in our evolution. The ego may makes us react like a victim but our greater self encourages us enough to proceed anyway knowing it is part of a larger plan.
At times the ego believes itself to be victorious, especially when a change that we desire does not occur right away.
But the greater self does not tremble, for it knows that there is a time for all change, an opportune time, the right best time:
I went to the island for a walk once and the ranger on the beach pointed to the turtle tracks leading out to the water. They had found no eggs and the turtle returned to the sea. This is known as a ‘false crawl’. The turtle typically comes ashore to lay her eggs but for many possible reasons her instinct empowered her not to at this time, thus, the false crawl.
How many times do we believe we have the answer or are close to realizing a goal and then suddenly we hesitate, even stop and turn back, maybe even start all over again? Our greater awareness realizes the time is not yet.
When faced with difficult choices visualize the outcome of each decision, experiencing it fully. Those decisions you think would make you feel terrified or humiliated, do over and over and over again. Do them until eventually the end result is no longer scary or embarrassing or whatever else you were feeling when you originally experienced (visualized) the event.
When the time is right, even overdue, not making the decision or change can oftentimes be detrimental. Anxiety can build to the point of obsession when we resist:
“So I went to see grandfather and I stood in front of him. His tall broad limbs protected me. I looked out to the meadow. I saw my stone circle in the distance and it all seemed so surreal. So much like a fairy tale and I was the lost child running amongst all this nature intelligence trying to make some adult decision. A child would not be concerned at what others thought.
It hurt me not to make this decision and the more I thought about it (let the feeling come up) the more fearful I became. I was vibrating scared and losing control fast. I grasped a hold of grandfather’s trunk and in the next sacred moment a veil lifted and fear dissipated. I found my breath. I looked back out at that same landscape but from a different vibration. I was grounded. I had made my decision. “
Do we fear making a decision or change because in the past we took similar action and ended up embarrassed, regretful and feeling unworthy?
I wonder if it is more than a bad memory surfacing. Could it be an imagined possible event actually taking place in our future?
We must remember that someone being critical or putting us down for any action we deem necessary to evolve is only one of many thousands of possibilities. So do their thoughts matter at all?
Miracles happen every day within us and around us; there is only a wisp of a partition between our world and that of nature and we are able to penetrate it at any time and drink from her source.
Ring back the magic, bring back the fairytale and bring back truth.
I thirst for this sustenance that is part wildness and part domesticated, the wild found outside and the tame found within.
Dance with the honeybees in the sow thistle.
